Monday, March 12, 2012

Spring Break Photo Recap!


Here’s a photo recap of my Spring Break:
I went home this week for a wonderful time at home.
Organizing my parents’ mail, and found my dad’s copy of the Carolina Alumni Review…sporting his favorite phrase :)
I drove Bradley to Whiteville to meet a friend and his dad to drive him to Durham, where he spent Thursday – Sunday doing inner-city ministry and learning from incredibly wise people. I can’t wait to read his notes!
He didn’t want to leave Gertie, his dog/first love.
She didn’t want him to leave either…
Unrestricted, unhurried time with Jesus.
One of my favorite things about coming home. Good food.
I also took Allie on a walk everyday. I called it Project: Make the Dog Not Fat.
Not pictured: Coffee dates and car rides with girlfriends.  It is so cool to see how Christ is using each of our situations to draw us further into Himself and to grow our heart for His Gospel and His mission. I am so thankful for our church in RDU, and the implications of being told again and again of our need for Jesus.
Mostly not pictured: Lots of time with my parents, grandparents, Trey and Ashley. The difficulty of loving when it is hard. (When is it easy?) And my humbled heart.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Peeing on the Playground.


Being a NC Teaching Fellow, fulfilling my requirements includes having ten hours (it is always, and should be, more) of field experience every semester.  Field experience can be observing/volunteering in a classroom, tutoring, or working with outside-of-school academic programs.  I much prefer time in a classroom–it has shown me, in an unique manner, the realities of school, teachers’ responsibilities, administrators, teaching strategies, students’ struggles, and adults’ efforts to alleviate issues.
On Monday and Tuesday I visited a Kindergarten classroom at a local school.
In this particular classroom, there was a student that had entered Kindergarten just the week prior–he was an Honduras native and an ESL student. *William had moved to America with his mother several ago.
Fortunately I have had awesome Spanish teachers in elementary school through high school, and so I was able to communicate with William--read: I know some vocab words and know how to loosely form simple sentences/phrases.  Fortunately, between me working closely with him and the luxury of having an ESL classmate who is bilingual in Spanish and English, William was able to complete most of his work.
Like any six-year-old, he loves running around on a playground. So going to “el parque” was the most exciting part of the day for William.  On Monday, as the students were walking in a single-file line (I was walking with him and holding his hand…I’m a sucker), as soon as he saw the playground, he began pointing and yelling to me that he was going to go “…en el parque! En el parque, mizz Kayla!”  
I could have died. His sweet face lit up as he squeezed my hand tighter.
The next day, as we were walking to the playground again, as soon as the slides and swings were in sight, he started shouting about “el parque” again.  But this time he let go of my hand and bolted ahead toward the rock wall–yes, rock wall. Since when do public school playgrounds get rock walls? I was gypped.
As soon as I thanked the Door Holder for holding the gate door for me, the teacher’s assistant rushed over to me to “stop William!” Apparently, before he could reach the rock wall, William’s bladder failed him and he relieved himself…not in his pants.
Fortunately, by the time he was in my sight he was fastening his belt.  I explained to him as best I could that “el parque no es el baño”, and that if he ever has to use the bathroom, he must go “en la escuela.” I then asked the bilingual student to make sure William knew that he could never use the bathroom outside, but must always use the restroom in the classroom.   When William understood, I was asked to take him back to the classroom to tell his teacher what had happened.
On our long walk back to the classroom, I asked William again if he understood why we had to leave the playground.  He did, and he replied “lo siento, mizz Kayla.”  My heart broke as I assured him it would be okay and that no one was angry with him
His teacher handled the situation and showed William where the bathroom was…she will be working with him on closing the door when he uses “el bano.”
I couldn’t help but think about this in a spiritual context. I like analogies, I’m sorry.
How many times does this happen in the church? In Christian homes? Where a child or a new believer is so excited about their salvation and Jesus’ work…the “basic” aspects of Christianity, and we shoot them down by telling them (or thinking) they are young and naive.  We see them as spiritually inferior.
They get so thrilled they pee in their pants and we embarrass them and tell them to stop, when they simply naturally responded to how awesome Jesus is.
I want my kids to pee in their pants when I tell them the Gospel story.
I hope I never stifle my children’s joy over what Jesus has done for them. I pray I am humbled by their love for the Lord.  May God grow a child-like love for Him in my heart.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

You're Beautiful.


On Tuesday night, Bradley and I went to his family’s church’s college ministry gathering, Overflow.  Sometimes I find (slash pridefully scrutinize) that some churches’ worship and preaching contain musical and communicative prowess, but lack theological depth–aka, they could be singing or talking about Joe-shmo because they don’t mention Jesus/the Cross. Tuesday night, the Overflow ministry preached the Gospel of Christ in word and worship.  Bradley and I were blessedand humbled by it.
Nathan, Brad’s best friend, has an older brother, Micah, who leads worship at Overflow and is the lead singer of his band, Rio Bravo. The last song Micah led that night was Phil Wickham’s, “You’re Beautiful”.  It was incredibly worshipful.
Phil Wickham is one of the few Christian artists I have enjoyed over the years. I remember hearing his song, “Cannons” on our local Christian radio station, “K-Love” (who I originally thought was named “Kayla”–self-absorbed from the start). I went home, looked up the lyrics, and have been listening to his music since.
I have a sentiment attached to the song below.  When I was in Kenya this summer, I realized I had been running from the Lord with my previous relationship with Bradley and that I needed to be obedient with the knowledge I possessed at the time, and end our then 2 1/2 year relationship.  It was obviously an emotional time where I was not unsure, but was very emotionally weak.
Our group went on a safari for a nice break during our two-week mission in which we got to camp in a Kenyan national park! During our safari drive, I sat next to one of the girls I grew close to, Jenny.  She held me, stroked my hair, and spoke biblical assurances to me.  She was acting so much like Jesus to me in that moment.  I am so grateful for her.
We were listening to her iPod for a while, and this song began to play…as the tears started to roll.

I see Your face in every sunrise
The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes
The world awakens in the light of the day
I look up to the sky and say
You’re beautiful
I see Your power in the moonlit night
Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright
We are amazed in the light of the stars
It’s all proclaiming who You are
You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful
I see You there hanging on a tree
You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me
Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne
Soon we will be coming home
You’re beautiful, you’re beautiful
When we arrive at eternity’s shore
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more
We’ll enter in as the wedding bells ring
Your bride will come together and we’ll sing
You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful
I see Your face, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful
I see Your face, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful
I see Your face, I see Your face
I see Your face, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful, You’re beautiful

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Hattie Jo & Norah


I get to spend my Sunday evenings with, hands down, the cutest 2-year-old little girls on the planet.
These girls love [my] purses, scarves, and sunglasses, they will laugh forever, & they love their mommies. We have a lot in common :)
Hattie Jo and Norah are the daughters of two of the families that are moving to Greensboro, NC to plant Mercy Hill Church.
Mercy Hill has a team of singles, couples, and families who have tasted and seen the necessity and sufficiency of Jesus’ work in their own lives, and desire it for other people. So in response to this Gospel and by the Spirit’s leading, the Mercy Hill team will be moving to Greensboro this spring. Yay/Boo.
Bradley and I have been blessed by Jeremy and Julianne Dager.
Jeremy disciples Bradley, Bradley and I get free wisdom and meals, and I get to enjoy their precious little girl. This is not a give-and-take relationship.
Andrew Hopper will be the lead pastor at Mercy Hill, and will be serving alongside his wife Anna and their two little ones, Hattie Jo and AP (he hangs out with Mommy on Sunday nights…two 2-year-olds can be plenty).
I can’t believe I get paid money to hang out with these two sets of chubby cheeks every week.
These girls are smart, apologetic, tender-hearted, and are by far the best huggers I’ve ever seen. My prayer for them is that the Lord would be faithful to them through their parents and church to preach the sufficiency of Jesus and the work He has prepared for us–that it would seep into the deepest corners of their hearts and lives. Pray with me for the Mercy Hill team–that they are in awe of and a part of the spread of the Gospel among the city of Greensboro, and their worship and adoration of our Risen King would be multiplied.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Happy Leap Day!


This is the year 2012, and it is February 29th! This is exciting for multiple reasons.
I only have 2 classes today.
Small group is tonight! SO EXCITED.
Spring Break is in 3 days! …midterms tomorrow and Friday.
I feel like I have an extra day to catch up (yes, I know the week goes on as usual, just making this year 366 days).
But I do have an extra day to catch up, PTL! My sociology midterm is online (aka, it’s going to kick my butt), but I discovered last night that it isn’t due until this weekend!
I have a paper due this afternoon (completed!) and a midterm in my Intro to Elementary Ed class on Thursday, so this is a huge relief. I feel as if I’ve been given an extra day to live by it being Feb. 29th, but also by realizing I have an extra day to study for a midterm!
Thank You Lord for the small blessings–for more time to glorify You and not me. Show me how to use it well.
As I fret over and celebrate time, You hold time in Your hand.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

40 Days of Prayer



This is the packet I received last night when I attended my church‘s Night of Prayer.  Members are to utilize this packet as a guide to set aside time everyday to pray (with 2 days of fasting).  The idea is to foster collective prayer and enhanced unity in fellowship via increased adoration for Jesus’ life, death, and resurrection–all for the sake of His renown.
Yesterday, being Monday, was a bit crazy (and rainy), and having to embarrassingly leave a class early, praying my car wouldn’t be towed where I parked it, and driving in the rain on the way there with my gas light on while on the phone with an upset girlfriend–I was not in the mood to pray.  I can be really mature at times…
Worshipping and praying with close friends is incredible.  While I sat with a lot of fellow college students, I was able to pray with my best friend and co-small group leader, Bailey, her awesome boyfriend Justin, and the man who is courting me, Bradley.  Such power in those relationships; so many relationships for which to pray; so many people in our lives who have yet to be raised to life in Jesus.  Come, Lord.
The Gospel manifested between believers is literally Heaven on earth. Move us, Spirit.
Our pastor read a passage toward the beginning of the night, Psalm 126:
“When the Lord restored the fortunes of Zion, we were like those who dream. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with shouts of joy; then they said among the nations, ‘The Lord has done great things for them.’ The Lord has done great things for us; we are glad. Restore our fortunes, O Lord, like streams in the Negeb! Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy! He who goes out weeping, bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy, bringing his sheaves with him.”
We rejoice for our own salvation and weap for those who are still lost. But those who labor for Christ’s fame with a broken heart for sin will not return empty-handed.  May I recall the depth of which Jesus pulled me out, so that I will ask and expect Him to do the same for other people.  Use me; send me.  You took my place–You will be glorified for eternity.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Snail Mail.

I love Valentine’s Day. I love that our culture sets aside a day to celebrate and acknowledge those we love.

I love also love snail mail.  Despite the kind of day I’ve had, getting a letter in the mail, just for me, is the sweetest thing.  So my love for stamps, envelopes and pretty pens, coupled with my love for lots of people, always produces Valentine’s Day cards!  36 this year, in fact.

Since I always send many, it is essential that I keep them simple.  PTL for Pinterest. 

This was my inspiration:

So I collected my materials from Target, of course:

I picked out cute Valentine-themed googly eyes (LOVE that they were different shapes!) : 

And some cute heart stickers (which I didn't realize were stickers until half-way through the assembling process) : 

I re-created the "eye love you" Valentines from my pin:


And added scripture to the inside of the cards:

Target was OUT of standard envelopes--they only had security!  Thankfully I had forgotten about some cute colorful envelopes I had tucked away.  Crisis averted.  

Address writing takes forever.

The finished 36!

On this day, however, I can’t help but be reminded of the original Lover.  He didn’t bring me a dozen roses, or chocolates, or even a lovely candle-lit dinner.   He asked for my love on the Cross.  And He proved that He will always be faithful and powerful by resurrecting Himself.  For me.  Kind of mind-blowing.  I will only find that kind of love in Him.